Oh what a week this has been!
Do you ever have a funny feeling that you are under attack from the enemy not just from the front but from every conceivable angle imaginable?
This has physically worn me out and it's funny because shortly after my latest post, literally in my life, all hell seemed to have broken out.
It seems when you follow what God asks you to do, the enemy pays you back on all ends.
I have been arguing with my hubby cause lately the job has taken a priority over family and we have taken a beating from everyone in our life so even though he has been out of town, the phone calls with him have been on the slim side. He hasn't really thought about calling us to check in, work hours drag on endlessly so it takes up all his mental time.
My kids just finished with school thankfully, but since there isn't anything to do or anyone to play with just yet, they are constantly all over me to find them something to do.
My physical health has been tested over the last two days with no sleep and lots of physical pain that Mom, hasn't felt like herself lately.
So you can see where my mind has been. I wish I could say it's been out to lunch but that would be so nice. It's more like it's been reduced to meaningless sludge and left to rot.
I am trying to wake up today and get myself back on track and at least get the engine facing in the right direction.
I woke up to find so many positive and supportive comments regarding my decision to post about my abortion. I was expecting to see some horrible comments but instead, I got the confirmation from God through all of you, that I did the right thing.
We may never know the reason behind why we are asked to do certain things from God, but I did it without thinking and without questioning it. I feel better for doing it. I don't feel like the enemy can use that one anymore as a reason to be ashamed about my past, cause I have published it for all the world to see. Can't use that one again on me.
Then Heather from *Beautiful Self* offered me a wonderful way to make me feel whole again. She awarded me the "Beautiful Self award", pictured above.
It changed my day instantly like God had personally tapped her on the shoulder and told her to send this my way, because I needed a pick me up. If you haven't read her blog or followed her, I honestly believe you should. It's like a surprise grab bag from God because you will never know what you'll get.
Sometimes she shares personal stories that are ones anyone can relate to, videos or music that has touched her in some way or even blogging about someone else. She is amazing and her blog is used by God in a very specific way. Please check her out, become a follower and best of all, comment her posts and let her know just what they meant to you. It's something that really means a lot.
I wanted to pass this along to some many others that I believe are also beautiful on the outside but especially on the inside.
1. dear craisin - is my daughter Caitlyn's blog. She is trying her hand at writing and would love to be encouraged and motivated by all the love and support you have all shown me. Written from the heart of a teenager whose goal it is to make the world a more beautiful place from her simply being here. Please stop by her blog and follow it.
2. Andrea at Arise to Write. She was one of the very first to begin to follow my blog and continues to inspire me by her own blog but by the comments she leaves on mine as well. She has a beautiful soul that challenges us to reach out and be better people to the hurting world around us. Stop by and become a follower today.
3. Lisa Shaw at Marriage Flavor deserves this award because of the beautiful things she write about to help so many of us hurting in our marriages today. She gives words from God's own sweet lips to help and pray for people in believing and non-believing marriages. I believe God is using her to battle for the marriages all over the world who find this shining light in a dark world.
4. Laurie at Supernatural Living - deserves this because she has also been a follower and fellow encourager in my deepest and darkest hours of blogging. She is so beautiful because she shares how to help the new blogger with things like linking your name and blog within your post so that posting recommendations makes things easy to people to find you and follow you. Thank you Laurie for emailing me personally to set that up!
5. Jennifer at Through the Storms of Life - for sharing her beautiful and personal journey of how she became a believer. Too often I feel people look at Christians and think we don't make mistakes once we are saved, or we have never walked in their shoes before, but we have. Thanks Jennifer for sharing how God has made your life a better one simply by knowing Him. Thanks also for the bedroom tips make over, not done with it yet, but changed the bedding last weekend and we love it already.
There are so many others that I follow but I am super confident thanks to Heather sharing this beautiful award to some many it will find it's way to other blogs we all have common ground with. Please don't let this sit but pass it along. You just never know how it will brighten someones day or even weekend for them.