Showing posts with label suicide. Show all posts
Showing posts with label suicide. Show all posts

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Are You Thirsty for Something More?



I can't help but be overwhelmed at times, but the growing number of suicides happening all over the world. That people are hanging on by a proverbial thread and suddenly feel that letting go is much easier than holding on. They despair and lose all sense of hope. Just what is it that drives people down this volatile road of destruction? What causes people to turn to alcohol and drug addiction, often times, leading to death by overdose, looking for something that can't find? When they can't find the answer, they take the shortcut out of life, and end it all.

You'd think that having money, power and a prestigious position or better yet, all three would make all your problems disappear. If it did, taking a hard look at Hollywood clearly shows us that even that isn't the answer. Well, you might argue, it would work for me! Really?

Philip Seymour Hoffman, a man at the pinnacle of success, winner of the Best Actor Oscar for his role as Truman Capote in the film Capote, and was nominated three other times for Academy Awards. Yet where did he wind up, dead with a heroine syringe still sticking out of his arm in his bathroom. He was found to have had a toxic mix of a variety of drugs in his system, but investigators found over 50 envelopes in his apartment with heroine referred to as Ace of Spades.

Heath Ledger, another actor from Hollywood on his rise to the top of his career, who at 28 died from an accidental overdose like Philip Seymour Hoffman of six different drugs, 2 strong pain killers, 2 anti-anxiety drugs, and two sleeping sleeping aids. He died alone in his bed.

Amy Winehouse, singer at 27, died from alcohol poisoning with five times the legal limit in her system, who refused psychiatric help when she felt it would take away from her creativity as an artist. Some stories in the media claim she died while watching videos of herself. She too, died alone. She joined what some are calling the 27 club, famous people who died at the age of 27, like Jimi Hendrix, Kurt Cobain, Janis Joplin, Jim Morrison, and still more others. You have notable celebrities like Whitney Houston, and Robin Williams who have reached the end of their rope and simply let go of the life they had here, because it was easier than dealing with whatever they were being haunted with.

Anywhere you look around you, suicide is on the rise from the Indian Reservations where teen suicide is at an all time high at the Pine Ridge Indian Reservation according to the New York Times.

The common theme in all of these circumstances is they all felt empty, lonely, and hurting. They are signs of a spiritual thirst. What people need is the love and acceptance found only in a personal relationship with Jesus.

Luke 9:25 ~ "What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self?" (NIV).

Just like the woman at the well in Samaria, Jesus came to her where she was at, because he needed to. We have to be willing to go to where people are. We need to engage. Sometimes Christians isolate themselves from what is going on around them, when we should be infiltrating and permeating our culture as our mission from God. From our angry neighbor, our hostile co-workers, unreceptive kids or even our own parents who don't know God. If you don't reach out to them, who will?

There is no room for bigotry or prejudice in doing so and we must go into it acting superior. We must overcome those obstacles in our own faith. Notice that Jesus broke the tension the Samaritan woman must have been feeling when walking in the heat of the day to the well, only because she was ostracized by those in her town, and came upon a Jewish man, looking at her when she approached. In those days, Jews and Samaritan's steered clear of one another. They didn't go out of their way to interact with one another at all. Before Jesus even spoke with her, she already had three strikes against her.

1. She was a Samaritan. Considered outcasts by the Jewish people of the day.

2. She was a woman. In fact, most Jewish people prayed that they were thankful they were men and not a woman. Women were considered lowly in both cultures over men.

3. She was an immoral woman, and her reputation was well known by everyone in town. No one wanted to associate with her.

Jesus broke the tension she had as she approached, simply by asking for a drink of water.

John 4:7 ~"When a Samaritan woman come to draw water, Jesus said to her, "Will you give me a drink?" (NIV).

A great quote I have heard said when asking why a farmer's orchard bared the best fruit and what was his secret to success was "For the fruit to grow, the farmer's shadow has to fall in the field." It means the farmer has to be in the field, engaged and willing to get his hands dirty. That is the secret to successful leadership as well.

Jesus didn't say to the whole world needs to go to church, but He did say, the church needs to go to the whole world. We need to be willing to go to where people are hurting and we also need to care about the people we share the gospel with. We can't see it as a job, it has to be personal for both of us.

John 4:4 ~ "Now he had to go through Samaria." (NIV). 

Jesus met people where they were. He didn't call them to come to Him, even though many did. There are those remarkable stories of one on one, face to face encounters, Jesus had with those who needed His message more than anyone. From the demon possessed man, the adulterous woman, the lepers, the blind, and the sick. Jesus met them on their terms.

I can only imagine where we would find Jesus today. It wouldn't be in some stadium or mega church, preaching His message, it would be those personal one on one times, in the streets the homeless, to the sick in hospitals, or the prostitutes on the street corners. Jesus would be there, giving them the living water, than satisfies more than this world ever can.

The things people are searching for, hope, love, acceptance, and self worth, can't be found in a bottle or a pill. There is an enemy at work that will try and convince you that you are unworthy, flawed, broken, worthless, and unlovable. But we serve a living God, one who died just for YOU! To give you a life that will be filled with peace, love, hope and a feeling that YOU were created perfectly just to serve Him. Isn't that what we all want in life?

Only a relationship with Jesus can do that.

Jesus said in John 4:13 ~ "Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, (referring to the water in the well) but whoever drinks the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life." (NIV)

1 Peter 1:3-7 ~ " Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade - kept in heaven for you, who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith - of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire - may be proved genuine and may result in the praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed." (NIV)

We have to remember that every single day is a spiritual battle. The devil never sleeps nor do the demons he employs to accomplish his tasks. There is a battle for souls and we are running out of time to share the message of hope with a dark and cold world.

Ephesians 6:12 ~ "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realm." (NIV).

Only a believer and follower of Jesus understands this scripture. The world is lost. They have no understanding of what is going on. They are ruled by emotions and feelings when they feel at the end of their rope and the enemy comes at just that moment in an effort to push them over the edge. Let us all make it our mission to be the salt to the earth, the light to the darkness and showcase the beauty and love we have through our personal relationship with Jesus Christ.

If you have found your way here, it wasn't an accident. God guided you here because He is the only answer You need to what is troubling you in your life. He can make your worthy. He can heal the brokenness inside you. He can give you the peace you are seeking. He can give you the unconditional love that you so desperately need.

Psalm 139:13-18 ~ "For You created my innermost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in Your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you. 

Precious reader, if you are looking for that answer to the deep, dark hole in your life? Take a chance on Jesus!!! Give him an opportunity to show you what He can do in your life and in your heart. He will always love you, always protect and care for you, and most importantly, He will never leave you!

Deuteronomy 31:6 "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."

John 3:16 ~ " For God so loved the world, that whosoever that believes in Him, shall not perish but have everlasting life."

John 5:24 ~ "I tell you the truth, whoever hears my Word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life."

If you want this living water that Jesus spoke about to the Samaritan women, consider this prayer with your whole heart and give your life to Jesus:

Father, I come to You, confessing my sin and asking for Your forgiveness. I thank you, Lord, for You have promised that if I will confess my sins, You will be faithful to forgive me and cleanse me from all unrighteousness. I want to turn from my sins and live in Your will. I ask that You give me the power through Your Holy Spirit to live the right way.

I thank You that Jesus Christ died on the cross, paying the price for my sins, and then rose from the dead. I accept Him now as my Savior, my Lord, and my Friend. Thank You for giving me new life in Christ. I surrender myself to You; make me what You want me to be. In Jesus' name. Amen!


Friend, if you have prayed that prayer and meant it with your whole heart, Jesus will begin to work in your life in ways you have never dreamed of. I welcome you to the family of God and rejoice over your salvation. There is a celebration going on in heaven just because you gave your life to Him.

Luke 13:7 ~ "I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety nine righteous people who do not need to repent." (NIV). 

Now, for the best thing, grab a Bible when you can. Begin reading it, starting with Matthew and work your way through it. Ask God to reveal Himself to You and what His plans are for your life from this point on. His Word is alive, because it changes and transforms people. Begin to enjoy the relationship you have with Jesus and get yourself involved with a church, not because you are required to do so, but because it will encourage you in your faith and help you grow spiritually!

If you have any questions or need prayer, please reach out to me at Stevenkat27@gmail.com. I'd love to help you and pray for you! ~ Love Kat



Thursday, January 29, 2009

Weight Gain for the Soul


No, this isn't a book from the authors of Chicken Soup for the Soul, but it would make a great title wouldn't it?? This is about my personal spiritual journey of late, that I am experiencing day by day. First of all, I need to explain things.

I was raised a devout Catholic until I was about 20 years old. Not the kind that goes to church on Sunday's and Ash Wednesdays and such, but it was the religion both my parents raised me on. I didn't know there was anything else out there.

Then I met my first husband who was a Born Again Christian that attended a pretty fanatic church. For some reason something clicked for me, perhaps it was all the stuff that they talked about when it came to the devil and demons since during my highschool years I was fascinated by Witchcraft, but not for the reasons of getting back at jilted loves or at friends that wronged me. Little did I know what I was curiously getting my self and soul into. Until that life changing moment when I gave up my life to Jesus Christ at a youth service, I wouldn't have believed half the stuff in my blog.

Something changed that day, I felt a whole lot lighter, physically, like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders that I had been carrying. Picture if you will, a huge boulder tied around my neck is about the feeling I had. I had such low self esteem growing up you couldn't measure how low to the ground I had come. My father and all the men in my life had managed to convinced me that would be as high as I could go. I deserved to be that way. It was my fault, or so I believed.

I had a pretty strong faith in the Lord for almost 2 years solid and would fall away and then come back. Pretty much the story for most Christians. Until my ex-husband found a new love for his future, and I was left alone without any hope, except Jesus. He never left me. I laid in bed one day contemplating suicide and taking pills one by one, every hour. I had convinced myself that all those men and what they had sold to me for so long was really true. I would never be a strong person and would always need a man to make me feel whole. I was worthless.I would never amount to anything. I was a failure. So I made an agreement that night, that I would pop a pill every hour until someone cared enough to pick up the phone and call me. I think I even clued God into that agreement even though he already knew. Trust me, life in the deepest, darkest pit of your soul and sinking farther than you ever thought you could possibly go in this life is nothing compared to actually being in the place. I think you stand at the crossroads at your life with a literal life or death decision.

Thankfully four hours into my quest, someone called. No one knew what I was doing because I felt utterly ashamed at even thinking this, but I honestly didn't care anymore. I was like on auto pilot and sat there all day crying, sobbing, and laying in bed. NO ONE knew! Just me and God. Thankfully that person was my current husband now, Steve. At the time, he was just a good friend that worked with me. He had no idea what was going on, but he took the time to listen to me cry and pour out my problems. It was at that moment that God reached down through Steve and offered me a way out of the hole I committed myself to. Years later I told Steve of that time and how he literally saved my life without knowing it. Thankfully I never went through that again, thanks to my renewed hope in God.

I have recently recommitted my life to God with Steve's help even though I had never lost my initial relationship but I certainly had quite a few things to clean up. First of all, my initial assessment of my life from men's perspectives, wasn't there fault, it was my own for believing their lies. Now I was determined to change my inner thinking. I had to release that burden to God since I was tired of that boulder being around my neck again of self doubt and self worth. I have learned through my husband how to really trust and love again. I have put God first in my life and that alone has done wonders for me. Next I put my husband's needs and then my kids! You've got to set up your priorities right and try your best to keep them there.

I have also learned how to recognize those signs when I hear others in the same dark pit. Oh I can remember that place all too well and God has blessed me with this so I can try and save people on that very place where I stood. Let's call it the crossroad to Hell, because once you make that decision I believe the devil stands there waiting to make sure you follow your decision by feeding you exactly what you believe you have to hear in your thoughts. You're not worthy, no one really cares about you, I bet that they won't even miss me when I gone or maybe they will and then they will be sorry.

Yeah right, wake up and smell the literal coffee! It's time we gain some weight for our soul and take the right steps to make a better decision to choose life. It won't be easy and sure taking the shortcuts may or may not make it better, but in the end, you will have to make an account for all the things you have thought, done and didn't do to God and I want to make sure that every day until that day, I don't have to feel ashamed anymore for my faith in Him or be embarrassed by watching my life's movie with Him. I want him to be proud of me, like any child would want their parents to be of them.

So don't be so quick to dismiss some of your mistakes in life, whether you feel ashamed or not, God will use those circumstances to help you bring another to Him and finally home! Every action we make, has to filter through God's hands so He is completely aware and waiting for you to come back to Him. He is never ashamed of you and never will be. Just say you're sorry and try not to do it again. He will use you for His glory anyway!

Isn't He amazing??!!!