Stage 2 of 5 complete!

Well I am seeing this week in stages until I am home and recovering. God and I have been talking quite a bit more lately and He understands my anxieties completely. He explained that even if I had the complete assurance and understanding of everything from beginning to end, I would still worry. It's human nature because I will not be in control of my life momentarily. Actually if I really think about it, there are so many opportunities when I am not in control of my life and let God take over the driving for awhile.

Take for example while we sleep. We don't worry that we won't wake up in the morning because sometime during the evening we forget to breath or to remind our hearts to beat again. Nope God handles the details. He is really great at that. He is more able to handle that than we would and I am so glad for that.

So while I check out temporarily on Thursday for my surgery, I have God handling the details for me. He will be making sure that everyone is doing what he created them uniquely to do and I will wake up in a few hours and just have to deal with recovery.

Yet even in that, God will handle the details. He will deal with my body healing itself. While my muscles and skin repair itself while my body supplies just what it needs to make it happen. God will handle it all. He always does.

So why the stages?

It helps me to process things being so in control of things all the time. Stage 1 was talking with the administrations office last week and handling all the paperwork so we are good to go with my insurance.

Stage 2, was dropping the kids off with my mom and sister. They are going to keep them during the week while I have tests stage 3, complete on Tuesday and surgery, stage 4, scheduled for early Thursday morning. With great news, I should be heading home on Friday, stage 5, final recovery.

I know this week has been extremely difficult for me pain wise. I have to say this week has been the most painful since this all began in November of last year. I think God is creating an appreciation in my mind so great to have this relieved, I'd be willing to do just about anything to have this taken care of.

I am working on creating a prayer journal that I plan on taking with me, with scriptures God has pointed out to encourage me and give me peace. I am also taking all your awesome prayers that I have printed out and posted in my book to help when the going gets tough. I have also created a great play list for my IPod of some really encouraging, and spiritually uplifting music to help get me there and recovering. If you want to email me something special, I'd be so glad to take it with me.

I even have the privilege of calling some prayer warriors to pray with me the night before. I ask for peace and no stress that day!

With that in mind, I am almost half way there, in regards to the stages. The amazing thing is just how close God and I have become in my intimate meetings in my mind. I just imagine we are meeting together in a park like setting, some place tranquil and beautiful. It's our place, but then again, God created it, he works in the details. He makes it all seem real!

So for now, I leave the details up to God, I place my whole life in His capable hands, I trust Him more than 100% if that's possible, and I go where He tells me to go.